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Wednesday, May 30th, 2007
9:47 pm
- 2x black coffee (8)
- green apple (70)
- skim milk (40)
- carrot (15)
- broccoli,cauliflower,celery with soy sauce (50)
- ww hot choc (25)

- 1 hr walk
- situps
Thursday, May 24th, 2007
9:53 pm
- black coffee (7)
- strawberries (10)
- green apple (70)
- diet jelly (12)
- small skim f/w (90)
- celery and salsa (5)
- mountain bread and vegies (100)
Wednesday, May 23rd, 2007
8:21 pm
- 2x black coffees (15)
- strawberries (10)
- green apple (70)
- skim f/w (90)
- diet jelly (12)
- steamed vegies (30)
- green tea

- 45 mins cardio, abs, leg weight machines
Tuesday, May 22nd, 2007
7:52 pm
- 2x back coffee w sk milk (10)
- strawberries w equal (15)
- green apple (70)
- 3x carrots (50)
- green tea

- 1 hr walk
- 1 hr cardio/weights class
Wednesday, May 16th, 2007
11:32 am
So you are craving food right now, huh?
What do you think you are doing?
Don't you dare go anywhere near food!
Don't touch it; don't even think about it
What do you want to do, become a fat cow?
I am your best friend, and if you eat, you are failing me and letting me down.
If you eat right it shows what little self-control you have.
That pain in your stomach right now, that is me, and that is your fat melting away.
When you feel empty, it means you are empty of your sins.
Summer is coming up. You want to be able to walk around in booty shorts and a bikini top, don't you?
You want to walk around in a bikini with your flat, firm little stomach and your toned little thighs.
You want to be able to run your hand over your stomach and feel your ribs.
You want to go to the mall and see that skimpy outfit and know you would look damn good in it.
You made a commitment to me. I am your life and obsession. Don't break what we have.
I will give you everything you want, but you have to give me what I want. And I want you to stay away from food.
Go have some water. Go drink some tea or coffee.
Or better yet - go to the gym, fatty!
Don't show me what little self-control you have.
Don't defy me.
You know that if you go eat right now, you will end up on your knees puking it all up until you see blood and water and your stomach is aching.
You will regret eating as soon as those calories and that fat slip past your tonsils and down into your body to add to that extra roll on your stomach.
You are going to get cellulite.
You are going to look like the typical fat soccer mom.
I can give you so much - I can give you a great body.
Show me your control and I will show you a flat stomach.
Show me you love me and can keep me a secret and stay away from food and I'll give you those shaped little thighs.
Show me you can run until you drop and I will give you a cute ass.
You love me.
If you eat now and throw away what you are working for, I will hate you. And you will hate yourself.
You have a meal plan; you have goals and dreams.
Don't throw that all away now. Don't give up what you really want for something you want now.
Don't eat fatty.
You are still no supermodel like Kate Moss.
Don't fail me.
Don't eat.
Wednesday, May 9th, 2007
8:47 pm
ok i worked out how to do photos..
this is what i look like now. im sooo depressed right now-these photos make me feel soooooo sick. the only reason im posting them is so i can post progress

and this is what i want to get back down to: (taken just over a year ago)

7:23 pm
the next 30 days
ive watched the race to size zero on youtube and was sooo inspired. and then i searched other videos too and realised that there is a full-on craze going on with people posting videos of their weight loss progress and how they deal with their ed. id really love to do the same thing cos it would be such a good way to stay motivated, but id be too scared of someone i know coming across it. ive kept my ed very secret.

a bit of my history: 2 years ago i became ana and lost about 20kg in 2 months.. ate under 200cals a day and went to the gym every day. it was intense and my studies massively suffered but for the first time i was known as the skinny girl. i loved the attention but i was still unhappy with my body. and when i realised that i was so screwed up mentally (because i still thought i was fat but had family and friends wanting to hospitalise me) i attempted to recover. i maintained 55kg (im 5 10) for a month but then gradually started gaining as i began to binge. then i went on holiday and practically ate nonstop for 3 weeks and went up to 65kg. and ive been trying to restrict for the last 6 months but have just fluctuated around 65.

now im determined to get back down.. not all the way down to 54 (my lowest) because i scared people, but ill settle with 59, although id love 57.

anyway my plan for the next 30 days is to have under 500 cals a day. the cals will be made up with egg whites, berries, protein shake, vegies, tofu and tuna. and of course coffee. i will exercise for at least 1 hr a day.

when i work out how to post a picture i will show you what i look like now and will post my progress over the next 30 days.

wish me luck! xoxox
Tuesday, October 17th, 2006
8:35 pm
im so upset right now. i just calculated that i have to get like 85% for this uni essay in order to pass the subject. im such a failure. this is really stressing me out yet i cant concentrate. i know my ed is to blame. how the hell am i going to get that mark AND stay on this fast?? i cant talk to anybody else about this. so im really relying on your support.
on a brighter note - day 2 of water fast successful.
Monday, October 16th, 2006
11:21 pm
water fast
hi guys! havent posted in a while - been reading all your posts tho!

ive started a fast. today is day 2. im going to go as long as possible. i know that after day 3 or 4 it is easy so ill aim for 2 weeks. but i have a question: im doing a water fast not a juice fast. am i allowed coffee or green tea?? will my body still go into ketosis if im having black coffee? or will it fuck up my fast cos there are a few calories in black coffee? but there are none in green tea so is that allowed?

thanks for your help
think thin
hugs xox
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